They goes in most unexpected way.‬

Being annoying, stealing my ice cream,

protecting me over cool looking guys,

being cute when you needed something from me,

asking me to cover you up in front of parents,

never miss any of my music performances,

picking me up from Bharatanatyam class in order to look at other girls in my class,

waking up early for me to catch the view of the sunrise,

taking care of me very well every time I’m sick or get admitted to hospital,

going for a run in the evening even though you hate getting darker,

you can read my silence and know something when wrong,

forcing me to admit that you have a good voice when you don’t have it,

using my perfumes to impress your first girlfriend,

avoiding wearing the same clothes since we’re not so twin,

my gossip partners,

stealing my socks,

sneaking out for night dog feeding,

movie marathon after SPM like end of the world

and much more other stuff we used to be...

Everything is still fresh in my mind,

How I lost you that night when I saw you,

While you’re struggling over your last breath,

One thing I wish I could sacrifice for you will be my life at that moment,

But

I lost you that night,

I lost my twin and my half soul,

You took away my heart, happiness, and everything we used to have together,

I never wish to see you goes away in that way,

Middle of the road at 3 am, the whole family crying, I’m screaming your name like I could bring you back when they announce you’re gone while you’re still staring at me.

That’s eyes which I could never forget.

Dear twin

Every year on this date,

I came to the same road where you leave me,

You break my soul and took half of me away,

Every time I came, I sat alone on the road and really wish you’re sitting beside me and telling me to continue living and fulfilling all our dreams.

I miss you so much but I can’t tell the world how much you meant to me. I have so many things to tell you, every time something happened I wish I could run to you and tell you first but now I’m just could smile and whisper in silence that you could hear in another world.

I agree no one could replace your place in my life and you always remind special who was my half-souls and definitely my soulmate is going to be jealous of you.

We promised will get through college and adulthood together but I’m going through it alone,

Sometimes it’s not about I’m missing you but it’s about how to continue living every day without you,

Thank you for coming into my life, shower me with all the love and care.

Thank you for all the beautiful memories we had,

You’re gone for almost 6 years now. I really hope you’re doing good there.

You’ll be always missed my Nesh.

21 July- the dark memory of you...

(A true story from the twin's sister who is still alive)